I know I've pretty much fallen off the face of the blogging world, and I've been okay with that for a while. Doing my best to maintain my sanity, find a work-life balance, and get my mental status together has been hard. I know there will always be good days and bad days, but I'm trying to still find that point where there are more good days than bad. I have such amazing friends IRL, but struggle with calling them when shit really sucks. I know they will be supportive, but no one wants to be the Debbie Downer 100% of the time, and I feel like that is where my brain is stuck. I was having a wonderful day last Wednesday and did something that was just so "Mom" and while it made me smile, I just could not kick the funk for the rest of the day.
|This is Ella, my best friend's baby. SO CUTE!|
Now, that is not to say that there haven't been some good things in my life. I'm trying to get on a better eating/cooking schedule for myself and for Kev. With him working 3 - 11, he is NEVER home for dinner during the week. I get discouraged quickly when I am the one cleaning, cooking, shopping, prepping, etc. So, since I hate to grocery shop, I'm making Kevin go with me on Sunday evenings. We make a list, make a meal plan, and shop. It's not glamorous, but running errands with him is much nicer than running them alone. So, I only get stuck cooking, cleaning, and eating by myself two or three nights a week - much better than 5! Added bonus is that I've actually lost 5lbs, and I don't know many people that will complain about that!
Also, my dad took us skydiving. And yes, the skydiving was an amazing experience and I can't wait to go back. It was fun and exciting, and to get to do that with Kevin and my dad was the absolute best! But, even better than skydiving was this amazing friend we made. Victoria was our instructor and she is AMAZING. Patient, and a little crazy - so informative and reassuring. She lives close to my work and in the last week we have developed an awesome friendship! How lucky am I to have made such a great friend doing something so cool?
Prepping for one wedding shower while planning travel for 3 weddings all within 7 weeks of each other plus the wedding we're just now dress shopping for = insanity. I've actually got an individual folder/binder/box for some of these weddings because i am so nervous I'm going to royally screw something up. Wish me luck on that part - even my level of organization is taking a hit here. While my poor bank account also takes a beating, let me tell you. Planning one bridal shower across the state (that's in 2 weeks); attending a wedding in NC (that's in October); then two weeks later a wedding in Pittsburgh; then the November wedding; and then the big trip to Washington (the state of, not DC) in January. My head is spinning. Party central.
Okay, off to find my sanity. Again.